When can I move out?
I don't know since when I started to begin stay late going home...(ehm, I think it's better using "house" rather than "home"). I always find some activities, jobs, or even excuses to run away from this house and this also become my habit.
I just feel can't breathe freely, can't move freely, can't do anything freely whenever stay at this house (concluded: I'M NOT MYSELF). So I prefer to lock myself in this tiny room, at least I can feel my presence for temporary.
I always lock this room when I'm going to work or going out, but I always feel something not at the right place if I open the door. I sensed someone open this room and touch my stuff. But I never take it to heart because I'm too lazy to create havocs.
TODAY...I really can't take it ANYMORE, it's out of my endurance limit..
I don't feel well today..I'm so tired..When I come back to this house, I just thought of take an earlier rest in my tiny room..But It was surprised me a lot and terribly spoiled my mood. I don't know which STUPID one and left some fu*kin stuffs and end up I need to tidy up my room..GRRR
After above story, few things flashed in my mind:
- I'm a human, I also need PRIVACY..But what was happened?
- I'm a human, I also need being RESPECTED..But what was happened?
- I'm a human, I also need someone to ask my PERMISSION whenever touch my stuffs....But what was happened?
**It was really disappointed me...When can I move out from this house that doesn't belong to me??I just simply want to become MYSELF sooner.
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